Some interesting dreams I had since the last post:
Playing ace of spades while dead tired:
So as I'm saying, i'm playing ace of spades ( the old version so more like openspades ) and i'm so exhausted I struggled to keep my eyes open, playing with me eyes closed most of the time, so tired in fact I miss almost every key on my keyboard I push, i get stuck on walls, choose wrong weapons, whenever I try to chat i speak gibberish and basically utter random letters and numbers, then I get stuck in a hole and forget how to jump, i try to break one of the blocks so i can just walk out but instead of the shovel i choose a grenade,I throw it and when I realise what i've done I cover my eyes and hope for the best. I actually survive and i'm now standing in a crater created by a grenade. The map appeared to be a mix of real life vatican and cs:go inferno map, all blocky of course.
The following day ( in the dream ) I recieved a steam message from someone ( guy? ) saying " Thanks for yesterday ". I wanted to reply him " No problem, kitty" because I thought I got laid with him/her ( WTF ??? ) But then I thought about it and realised i didn't know what the hell was he talking about so i asked him and he instantly replied that he thanked me for helping to votekick a guy from some server... yeah, no problem brah
Going to a school party and meeting a mysterious girl... :
So basically there's this school party in this room, the floor is dark green marble and the walls are some dark colour. There are some columns holidng up the ceiling too, there are desks and chairs around the middle of the room formed into a square, on the tables basic party food ( crisps, juice, popcorn in bowls, cola etc. ) In the corner of the room was the audio set, a music player with some huge speakers, next to the table another table but with food if you get hungry, there sat my teacher with some class nerds chatting her up. Music playing, people chatting... As I mentioned it's a school kind of party so the people there were supposed to be my classmates but barely any actually were.
That's where I come into the play, the entrance wasn't free and you had to pay and I didn't feel like it because I thought the party sucked.
So to make my time better I decide to " have some fun " and basically annoy as much people as I can ( interrupt conversations, insult people, throw stuff, laugh at stuff etc. )
But then, someone called me out on my behaviour not in a nice way really, a guy in a purple hoodie, a little bigger than me so I started a fight ( he had some goons with him but didn't care )
The fight:
So, we were standing in front of eachother and I started it by attempting to sucker punch him but he survived that and was caught off guard so I used the occasion to start swinging at him, punched him like 3 times pretty hard and he started to punch back, as he lunged himself at me I grabbed him and pushed him to the floor which to my surprise actually worked, then I got on top of him and went at his face, hard hits from left to right, from right to left, from left to right... before someone pulled me off him and broke it up. The reactions were mixed, some were impressed and told me that was hardcore the others got mad and told me to get out.
Despite that after some time things went back to normal again and this is where things get interesting, throughout the whole party I was sitting next to a really nice girl ( she sat to my left ) and as I said she was really kind despite me being a prick. We had an amazing time together as we turned out to have a lot in common and we found eachother to be exciting to talk to, she even laughed at the stupid stuff I said, she would also show me some memes on her phone. About the phone, at some point in the party as she went somewhere ( to the bathroom I guess ) she left her phone on the desk, turned on and everything and curiosity got the best of me so I browsed through it, as the starter screen she had a drawing done in paint of nsfw nature ( something you'd scribble in a minute if you were reeaalllyyy bored ), in her gallery I found a picture of me which lead me to believe we knew eachother from before the party or she simply took it at the party.
What's interesting is that whenever I would remember how much I hated this party/ the people in it she would calm me down by... carresing my face and speaking softly to me
yeah, it would get me to shut up and leave me a bit flustered but one time she did that I moved myself closer to her and couldn't stop looking in her eyes, they were blue and she looked right back at me, carresing me even more, behind the ear and playing with my hair. I thought I fell in love. Maybe i wanted to kiss her but couldn't gather up the courage ? I don't remember which one of us broke the moment but I would imagine it was her because If i were her i'd get annoyed ( what are you waiting for, just kiss me you dummy ! ). It felt real nice you know, i'd stare more if i only could... I remember beating myself for not having kissed her right there when I woke up, then the dream would get more interesting wouldn't it ? She had slight acne, blue eyes, her hair was a mix between red and blonde but closer to blonde, she didn't seem to have any make up on ( though i'm a guy so I don't know ) I guess you could say she looked kinda like Sissy Spacek from badlands but again not quite.
After some time I got a task of giving everyone a ticket, so I recieved a whole roll of them ( my mind couldn't think of an actual ticket so they were just gas station receipts ) and so I probably did. Though i don't know what the hell were those tickets for.
Then I almost started another fight when this guy snapped and asked me wtf was wrong with me. Before I could answer the teacher got up and scolded me out loud in front of everyone calling me a " freaking animal" so I got mad too, stood up and said something like " Listen you ***** do you think I like being here !? I hate all of you ! You probably want me to sit in the corner, be quiet, take insults, pretend to have fun and pretend to find the stuff you say funny ? Hell no, i'm actually having fun for once ! Yeah maybe I should't be so rude, hell maybe I just don't know how to behave around people ( my angry rant turned to a sad rant ) maybe i'm just a stupid tool blah blah blah..." then some guy was holidng in his laughter and I guess i threatened or death stared him.
After the rant I got out and soon I noticed the girl followed me and told me she's leaving too.
We went into a clothing store, small but pretty modern looking, black and white tile floor, grey walls, big windows through which you could see the city, If I had to guess it was around 2am ( why was the shop open ? ) Wasn't really busy, a guy and 3 girls worked there, 2 were busy putting clothes into shelves and the guy and the girl were chatting at the counter, I came in and said " Hi there" to which they said " hey". I took my seat and waited for them to offer me their services, the girl I came in with sat next to me. The clerks were pretty much ignoring me, not wanting to serve me for some reason so I sat there thinking of what I wanted to buy when it struck me i didn't really want to buy anything. I knew about this shop already because some time in the dream ( probaby before the party ) I saw people walking in looking normal and leaving looking like rockstars straight out of a concert ( Elvis, rolling stones guys etc. ) The guy started making some small talk with me, about the business and the whole " tough times" routine. I asked him if they had any interesting leather jackets ( Like cool patterns, crazy colours, stripes on sides, interesting graphics, lots of pins etc. ) and he pointed me to a section with like 4 red winter jackets and I was like " uhh yeah thanks that's excatly what I meant, guy. "
Then I dream about waking up and pretty soon after I actually wake up.
tl;dr of the long dream:
- go to party
- "troll" anyone i can
- get into fight
- meet nice girl
- "troll" some more
- told to get out
- i do
- ?????????
- the end
The girl got me wondering, since your mind can't actually make up a person in a dream it had to be someone I already saw somewhere... So, who was she ??? I should note that I have poor face memory and it could of been a girl friend I happen to know but her appearance warped by my poor memory, or maybe a movie character. ( By the way do people in dreams EVER tell you their name ? I never learned hers. )
The girl most likely symbolised my longing for some relationship ( love aspect ) or my mother ( calming me down by petting me like a puppy )
And as to why I dreamed of getting mad at everyone ? When i was a kid i had short temper and prone to just outrage at everyone around me, what's even worse is that a couple kids from my class would break toys/school/other kids artwork and blame it on me, since I had a reputation of easily getting mad the teacher would believe and I would be blamed for it which would get me even more mad. My temper is a lot better nowadays of course but I guess maybe the dream communicated to me that it's still there deep down inside me, I know it's pretty obvious ( duh ) everyone has anger inside them but it's cool to notice those things.
PS. Thank you dream girl for sticking with me, i'm actually a lot nicer normally
though maybe you just like bad boys...